Is it when words do not come or rather when words do not arrive yet? I believe that they still haven’t come yet so its the latter.
Today I struggled with connecting words together. I had them in my head like bits of words and they just do not connect when I wrote them down.
My article for my school paper just got published in public and I’m growing anxious by the minute. I’m anxiously waiting for a comment saying, “This article is bad. They should fire the student who wrote this.” or whatnot. I came to the conclusion that as much as I enjoyed writing the whole article together, I still need to learn how to not care so much of what the world thinks.
I’m still learning and I hope I will learn to get past this.
Back to the when words do not come, I read an entry from the Red Hand Files of songwriter and musician Nick Cave. Someone asked him “What do you do when words aren’t coming?”
Nick Cave answered, “The idea of lyrics ‘not coming’ is basically a category error. What we are talking about is not a period of ‘not coming’ but a period of ‘not arriving’. The lyrics are always coming. They are always pending. They are always on their way toward us. But often they must journey a great distance and over vast stretches of time to get there. They advance through the rugged terrains of lived experience, battling to arrive at the end of our pen. In time, they emerge, leaping free of the unknown — from memory or, more thrillingly, from the predictive part of our minds that exists on the far side of the lived moment. It has been a long and arduous journey, and our waiting much anguished.”
Finally, he ended with, “Our task is to remain patient and vigilant and to not lose heart — for we are the destination. We are the portals from which the idea explodes, forced forth by its yearning to arrive. We are the revelators, the living instruments through which the idea announces itself — the flourishing and the blooming — but we are also the waiting and the wondering and the worrying. We are all of these things — we are the songwriters.”
I believe this does not only apply to songwriters. I believe it applies for all writers as well. Its not when words do not come, its just that they havent arrived yet. While we are patiently waiting for them to arrive, it is our task to be aware of them at all times and still continue to live our life.